Sexually Me

If you haven't figured it out already, I'm a computer geek. I like to tweak, twist & nibble... on... um... well, you get the picture, on sites & technology. I'm sure you've already seen some changes & adjustments, and you can be assured that there will be more. And even more "honesty" awaits as well. After having some great chats this weekend on IM & e-mail, I have these fresh thoughts that I need to get out of my head. Have a Happy Halloween, and I'll talk to you soon.

Googlism Okay... this is just way too funny to not post about it. Especially for a Monday morning. Enter your first name, and have a laugh at some of the results. My favorites after a brief scan are: ben is ejaculating on the hot opened vagina of a prostitute with a big sexy tits ben is holding teresa's head and inserting his dick into her wet mouth ben is also in april's seventeen magazine ben is coming ben is inserting his horny erected cock into the widely opened asshole of his mature lover ben is my longdurationsavior So yeah, I'm predictable. But what else would you expect from a perv? Have a great Monday!

Three posts in one day. No, I'm not trying to set a record. Just trying to start poring out some of my emotion because I'm not sure how much longer I can keep it bottled up. So, I've been feeling weepy lately... over the last few days. I can blame part of it on the eloquent prose from Jefferson at " One Life, Take Two ". Another part of it is the relief at finally having my wife back in town, after her hasty departure two Mondays ago to deal with the loss of her Uncle in New Jersey (45 minutes from Manhattan). Another, and probably bigger part is realizing that life is fleeting, and that deep down, I'm not happy. Ask my wife, and she'll tell you that I haven't been happy for a while. Sure, I have my moments, that I couldn't be happier than in that moment. Then life rushes in, and I'm back to just maintaining. I could start going into all of my issues, but I'd need a week to write this. Much of it is the job loss over the last year

I ask you to bear with me as I start to adjust how this space is organized. As a computer nerd at heart, I like to tinker, tweak & utterly transform my creations. And this, more than anything of late, could be considered a creation like none other. So, soon, you'll be graced with: a photo for my profile, additional links from which inspiration is derived, sites of pleasure, maybe even Half-Nekkid Thursday pictures. Please bear with me, and your comments are always welcome.

Welcome to my little portion of the web. At least the one that will highlight this "secretive" part of my self. In the everyday world, I'm a successful(?) computer programmer, consultant, father, and husband to a loving & supportive wife. Some would say that I've come far from whence I began, and they might even consider that I have little to wish for. And then there's the battle that I wage almost daily within my own psyche. Most recently in the last year, I've undergone a shift of jobs not once, but four times. Included in that, is a gap of two months without ful-time employment. Add to that, a sudden death of an uncle-in-law, and I'm trying to find a way to not only live my life with more clarity, but with happiness. And in the last 2 weeks, I'm grasping for straws. I've been curious, yearning, to experience the sexual aspects of a man, and to really embrace the more submissive side of my sexual identity. At the same time, I'm sca